THE TEXAS TRIP - DAY 6c - Thursday, December 20, 2001

The road to the Grand Canyon.

Another view along Grand Canyon road. The ground starts to open up.

Here at the Grand Canyon finally... Wahoooooooooooooo!!!

Awesome view 1. It is amazing what such a grand view can do to a person. This has been the most awesome creation of God's handiwork that I have come across!

Awesome view 2. At this point for a few minutes I connected with my inner self totally free to express what was inside. I did not understand what was happening to me. I was afraid. Perhaps it was initiated by overlooking the vast emptiness and viewing my life without a partner to share it with.

Awesome view 3. I fought off the feelings that were against what I wanted myself to believe. You see that I never ever wanted to get married again and for a brief span of a few minutes, I felt that I really wanted someone in my life again and that I was missing out on a lifetime of happiness. And yet, I had been married once before and now lacked the kind of trust needed to ever return to that state again. I would not take a chance on getting burned again.

Awesome view 4. My heart said one thing and yet my head said another each at battle with the other. In the end, I had chosen out of fear to fight off my feelings. Without trust, you have nothing to offer someone.

Awesome view 5. And there I was locked in a prison of my own making. The story of the Wandering Hobo is about more than just travelling. I have met people on the road out there trying to find themselves and where they should be in life and others running away from their past.

The Grand Canyon Lookout tower... This place will now always hold bittersweet memories of what could have been. If you have never been to the Grand Canyon, be prepared for an experience of a lifetime! It is so hard to capture on film, the essence of this place.

An Arizona sunset. A milestone had occured in my life this day and it drew to a close with a heavy sadness in my heart of a missed opportunity. I knew that from this day forward, it would likely haunt me for the rest of my life. Sometimes in life we do not get second chances and sometimes things were never meant to be and sometimes we plain just do not know the answer to the question "Why?". Life goes on and we must move forward with it.